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Tue, Sep. 9th, 2008, 04:19 am
I've tried for 3 years - seems like 30

It was the birthday of bileograph a few days ago and I got to be at the karaoke bar again. I performed the role of Andrew Lloyd Webber's Jesus, conveying my simultaneous fear of and and longing for God through through movement and song. It went well! I felt like I rolled a "20" on a "perform check." I even got the tune right some of the time, and the rest of the time I could just scream about wanting MY LORD (that song, Gethsemane, is basically one screaming climax after another). It was pretty much as though the second coming had arrived, said these attractive girls who were there.

I diminished the impact of my initial performances with a terrible, embarrassing, ill-timed attempt to sing "Nights in White Satin." I had forgotten how, uh, especially sentimental the words to that song are.

Earlier that week, I myself had a birthday and turned 25. I was sad for a while, because 23 was maybe the oldest I'd ever been able to imagine myself at any point in my life, ever. Turning 24 was troubling, but I could still say, "oh, I'm not that far from 23." Turning 25, however, feels like passing the point of no return. It is when you stop being "a recent graduate" and start being "poor" or "downwardly mobile." Similarly, 25 is the age when it stops being ok to be mistaken for a 15-year-old boy or weird teenage androgyne. Yet the alternative is not desirable. I do not have many options here.

However, my black thoughts were dispelled when my friends took me to the Pennsylvania Renaissance Faire and later to the adult arcade! By "adult arcade" I do not, of course, refer to a porn theater, but rather to Dave and Buster's--an establishment that has fascinated me since my youth, an unsettling mix between a TGI Friday's and a Chuck-e-Cheese's intended for, I guess, young professionals. In any case, it was the perfect place for a man of means to celebrate his 25th birthday with a group of his friends, or perhaps his teammates in "touch football." And I got to be that man.

Tue, Sep. 9th, 2008 02:04 pm (UTC)
shadowdryad

My thoughts on turning 25 were very similar! I still don't feel like I've all the way come to terms with it. It's like I have to admit that I am in fact "grown up" as I am now "three plus years out of college" and "living in poverty."

Tue, Sep. 9th, 2008 05:22 pm (UTC)
kid_sportswear

I haven't seen you in forever! You should come to our show on the 16th and hang!

Wed, Sep. 10th, 2008 05:07 am (UTC)
donferdinand

I just might!

Wed, Sep. 10th, 2008 05:26 am (UTC)
kid_sportswear

That would be sich as hell!

Tue, Sep. 9th, 2008 07:22 pm (UTC)
agabrielrose: Great Time The Other Day

Worked out really well, banging out the details on the Rogers account while playing Whack A Mole.

Tue, Sep. 9th, 2008 08:46 pm (UTC)
donferdinand: Re: Great Time The Other Day

God damn, I need to be hitting the gym more. Starting to look like a goddamn Serbian refugee again

Wed, Sep. 10th, 2008 08:07 am (UTC)
crystalridge: Re: Great Time The Other Day

Awww Anna you look just like your mommy in that photo!
Just kidding, you don't really, you actually look very much like yourself (and rather boyish)

I thought of you on your birthday. But I coulnd't call you because I lost your cell phone number. so Happy Belated Birthday!!!!

Much love,

J

Fri, Sep. 12th, 2008 12:04 am (UTC)
balor: Re: Great Time The Other Day

you should have called me and i'd have given it to you... oh wait, i was in china!

Thu, Sep. 11th, 2008 06:20 am (UTC)
wil

Your arms are really short in that picture
do you find you have trouble reaching things that are above your head


i turned 25 within like 72 hours of you doing so
and i, too, have the same thing of feelings

Fri, Sep. 12th, 2008 12:05 am (UTC)
balor

Dude, I'll feel totally the same in like a month. Well, minus the downwardly mobile part or something.